Here's a few fun things about me....
1. I LOVE chocolate.
2. I once sky dived with a friend for her bacholorette party.
3. I collect shoes and purses. ;)
4. In high school I would often stay home and do the jocks homework while they were out partying.
5. I am very claustrophobic. I can't even sleep close to a wall.
6. I was enlisting in the Navy when I found out I was pregnant and couldn't go.
7. I sleep with 1 sock on and 1 sock off.
8. I won't watch movies more then one time. It's boring!!
9. I am scared of nothing.
10. Well okay...I am scared of snakes and spiders. But that's it.
11. I want to be a Dallas Cowboys cheerleader when I grow up.
12. When I was a teen I used to go to bars, enter dance contests and win them using a fake ID.
13. One of my best friends of about 20 years now is my opposite sex.
14. I believe that God has a plan and a reason for everything.
15. I love to travel. My ultimate goal in life is to see as much of this world as I can.
16. Sitting on my front porch is one of the most relaxing and peaceful things I can do.
17. I believe my husband and I share a brain. haha! I always tell him to get out of my mind!
18. I love to wear my sons cloths.
19. I was a model for a world renowned body painter. He painted me!
20. I am a horrible perfectionist!
Friday, October 23, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
The Strangest Secret...
"People are always blaming their circumstances for what they are. I don't believe in circumstances. The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and if they can't find them, they make them."
Well, it's pretty apparent, isn't it? And every person who discovered this believed (for a while) that he was the first one to work it out. We become what we think about.
Conversely, the person who has no goal, who doesn't know where he's going, and whose thoughts must therefore be thoughts of confusion, anxiety and worry - his life becomes one of frustration, fear, anxiety and worry. And if he thinks about nothing... he becomes nothing.
How does it work? Why do we become what we think about? Well, I'll tell you how it works, as far as we know. To do this, I want to tell you about a situation that parallels the human mind.
Suppose a farmer has some land, and it's good, fertile land. The land gives the farmer a choice; he may plant in that land whatever he chooses. The land doesn't care. It's up to the farmer to make the decision.
We're comparing the human mind with the land because the mind, like the land, doesn't care what you plant in it. It will return what you plant, but it doesn't care what you plant.
Now, let's say that the farmer has two seeds in his hand- one is a seed of corn, the other is nightshade, a deadly poison. He digs two little holes in the earth and he plants both seeds-one corn, the other nightshade. He covers up the holes, waters and takes care of the land...and what will happen? Invariably, the land will return what was planted.
As it's written in the Bible, "As ye sow, so shall ye reap."
Remember the land doesn't care. It will return poison in just as wonderful abundance as it will corn. So up come the two plants - one corn, one poison.
The human mind is far more fertile, far more incredible and mysterious than the land, but it works the same way. It doesn't care what we plant...success...or failure. A concrete, worthwhile goal...or confusion, misunderstanding, fear, anxiety and so on. But what we plant must return to us.
You see, the human mind is the last great unexplored continent on earth. It contains riches beyond our wildest dreams. It will return anything we want to plant.
Well, it's pretty apparent, isn't it? And every person who discovered this believed (for a while) that he was the first one to work it out. We become what we think about.
Conversely, the person who has no goal, who doesn't know where he's going, and whose thoughts must therefore be thoughts of confusion, anxiety and worry - his life becomes one of frustration, fear, anxiety and worry. And if he thinks about nothing... he becomes nothing.
How does it work? Why do we become what we think about? Well, I'll tell you how it works, as far as we know. To do this, I want to tell you about a situation that parallels the human mind.
Suppose a farmer has some land, and it's good, fertile land. The land gives the farmer a choice; he may plant in that land whatever he chooses. The land doesn't care. It's up to the farmer to make the decision.
We're comparing the human mind with the land because the mind, like the land, doesn't care what you plant in it. It will return what you plant, but it doesn't care what you plant.
Now, let's say that the farmer has two seeds in his hand- one is a seed of corn, the other is nightshade, a deadly poison. He digs two little holes in the earth and he plants both seeds-one corn, the other nightshade. He covers up the holes, waters and takes care of the land...and what will happen? Invariably, the land will return what was planted.
As it's written in the Bible, "As ye sow, so shall ye reap."
Remember the land doesn't care. It will return poison in just as wonderful abundance as it will corn. So up come the two plants - one corn, one poison.
The human mind is far more fertile, far more incredible and mysterious than the land, but it works the same way. It doesn't care what we plant...success...or failure. A concrete, worthwhile goal...or confusion, misunderstanding, fear, anxiety and so on. But what we plant must return to us.
You see, the human mind is the last great unexplored continent on earth. It contains riches beyond our wildest dreams. It will return anything we want to plant.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Oh wow...
Wow.....some days life can be so damn humbling! And today just happens to be one of them. I always try to find the positive in any and every day...it's who I am! I much prefer a glass that's 1/2 full! But there are some days that I just get up on the wrong side of the bed and find myself feeling irritated or frustrated. Today kinda started out being one of those days. Life was just rubbing me the wrong damn way!
And then..BAM..it happened! Life slapped me right upside the head, hard! A friend of mine lost his 19 year old son this weekend, he died in a car accident. And as I was sitting here being irritated at the world...my phone rang and it was him. I froze...what will I say? What do you say? Is there anything comforting or even semi intelligent that I can muster up to say that would offer him any sense of comfort? Oh...no! I answered the phone and heard my friend, a man that is usually so full of life and laughter on the other end....empty and sad. It was a short and humbling conversation. And it left me here to ponder life and it's consequences it sometimes so unfairly throws people. One of those things that leaves you wondering why? I know that my friend and his wife will never ever be the same. They will never have the life they had the moment before this horrible accident occured. They will never have just 1 more minute with their son. They will never get the opportunity to hear his voice again, or hug his neck. It's gone..all gone forever!
And in that very moment I stopped and realized just how overwhelming full my glass is! I hope to never have to face the mountain these parents are so courageously attempting to climb right now. My heart hurts for this mother who lost her son, the pain must be crippling her soul! And the pain must be devastating for this father who just can't fix it this time. What a humbling moment for the rest of us who think we've had a bad day! Wow...is all that I can keep thinking....
And then..BAM..it happened! Life slapped me right upside the head, hard! A friend of mine lost his 19 year old son this weekend, he died in a car accident. And as I was sitting here being irritated at the world...my phone rang and it was him. I froze...what will I say? What do you say? Is there anything comforting or even semi intelligent that I can muster up to say that would offer him any sense of comfort? Oh...no! I answered the phone and heard my friend, a man that is usually so full of life and laughter on the other end....empty and sad. It was a short and humbling conversation. And it left me here to ponder life and it's consequences it sometimes so unfairly throws people. One of those things that leaves you wondering why? I know that my friend and his wife will never ever be the same. They will never have the life they had the moment before this horrible accident occured. They will never have just 1 more minute with their son. They will never get the opportunity to hear his voice again, or hug his neck. It's gone..all gone forever!
And in that very moment I stopped and realized just how overwhelming full my glass is! I hope to never have to face the mountain these parents are so courageously attempting to climb right now. My heart hurts for this mother who lost her son, the pain must be crippling her soul! And the pain must be devastating for this father who just can't fix it this time. What a humbling moment for the rest of us who think we've had a bad day! Wow...is all that I can keep thinking....
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Sigh....
Do you ever have those days..or weeks...or maybe even a month that just wear you out?! I'm so there. What a seemingly tiresome time it's been lately. And the most annoying part of it all is that I can't quite put my finger on what is so damn wearing. Or maybe the most annoying part of it is that I am a newlywed. Yeah, according to the books this is the time of "great bliss, the time of exploration, and fun." Um...excuse me, bliss, exploration and fun you forgot all about me! Left me behind. Dropped me smack dab back in the middle of utter chaos. Am I not entitled to the same newlywed bliss as all the rest of the blushing brides? Cut me a break for pete sake!
You would think I would be more then used to "my amazingly busy world" by now. I've been actively participating in it for a long time now. But believe it or not, even a pro like me gets pretty darn worn out. I dream of a week when I can do a bunch of nothing. Yeah you heard me right. Just have no schedule. Hang out with my husband, my boys, the great outdoors. Nothing would be sweeter it seems. Or maybe it's because I know it's so out of reach right now that it would seem so sweet. Maybe I would actually get bored and want a whole lot of damn wearing again. I might end up deciding I need to be careful what I wish for. haha. But for now...to get me thru this chaos I think I will keep wishing and dreaming. Give me some peace and quiet. Give me a schedule that has some blankly clear times scrached throughout it. And just go ahead and throw me a whole bunch of nothingness! I can take it, I promise! I'd lay around and soak it all up. I'd nap in it's deafening silence. I'd gaze at it's clear openness! And I'd smile at it's free spiritedness. Go ahead and try me, I'd be happy to give it my best shot! Pretty please.
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