Sigh....

 Do you ever have those days..or weeks...or maybe even a month that just wear you out?! I'm so there.  What a seemingly tiresome time it's been lately. And the most annoying part of it all is that I can't quite put my finger on what is so damn wearing.  Or maybe the most annoying part of it is that I am a newlywed.  Yeah, according to the books this is the time of "great bliss, the time of exploration, and fun."  Um...excuse me, bliss, exploration and fun you forgot all about me!  Left me behind.  Dropped me smack dab back in the middle of utter chaos.  Am I not entitled to the same newlywed bliss as all the rest of the blushing brides? Cut me a break for pete sake! 

  You would think I would be more then used to "my amazingly busy world" by now.  I've been actively participating in it for a long time now.  But believe it or not, even a pro like me gets pretty darn worn out.  I dream of a week when I can do a bunch of nothing.  Yeah you heard me right. Just have no schedule. Hang out with my husband, my boys, the great outdoors.  Nothing would be sweeter it seems.  Or maybe it's because I know it's so out of reach right now that it would seem so sweet.  Maybe I would actually get bored and want a whole lot of damn wearing again.  I might end up deciding I need to be careful what I wish for.  haha.  But for now...to get me thru this chaos I think I will keep wishing and dreaming.  Give me some peace and quiet. Give me a schedule that has some blankly clear times scrached throughout it.  And just go ahead and throw me a whole bunch of nothingness!  I can take it, I promise!  I'd lay around and soak it all up.  I'd nap in it's deafening silence.  I'd gaze at it's clear openness!  And I'd smile at it's free spiritedness.  Go ahead and try me, I'd be happy to give it my best shot! Pretty please.