Here's a few fun things about me....
1. I LOVE chocolate.
2. I once sky dived with a friend for her bacholorette party.
3. I collect shoes and purses. ;)
4. In high school I would often stay home and do the jocks homework while they were out partying.
5. I am very claustrophobic. I can't even sleep close to a wall.
6. I was enlisting in the Navy when I found out I was pregnant and couldn't go.
7. I sleep with 1 sock on and 1 sock off.
8. I won't watch movies more then one time. It's boring!!
9. I am scared of nothing.
10. Well okay...I am scared of snakes and spiders. But that's it.
11. I want to be a Dallas Cowboys cheerleader when I grow up.
12. When I was a teen I used to go to bars, enter dance contests and win them using a fake ID.
13. One of my best friends of about 20 years now is my opposite sex.
14. I believe that God has a plan and a reason for everything.
15. I love to travel. My ultimate goal in life is to see as much of this world as I can.
16. Sitting on my front porch is one of the most relaxing and peaceful things I can do.
17. I believe my husband and I share a brain. haha! I always tell him to get out of my mind!
18. I love to wear my sons cloths.
19. I was a model for a world renowned body painter. He painted me!
20. I am a horrible perfectionist!
Friday, October 23, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
The Strangest Secret...
"People are always blaming their circumstances for what they are. I don't believe in circumstances. The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and if they can't find them, they make them."
Well, it's pretty apparent, isn't it? And every person who discovered this believed (for a while) that he was the first one to work it out. We become what we think about.
Conversely, the person who has no goal, who doesn't know where he's going, and whose thoughts must therefore be thoughts of confusion, anxiety and worry - his life becomes one of frustration, fear, anxiety and worry. And if he thinks about nothing... he becomes nothing.
How does it work? Why do we become what we think about? Well, I'll tell you how it works, as far as we know. To do this, I want to tell you about a situation that parallels the human mind.
Suppose a farmer has some land, and it's good, fertile land. The land gives the farmer a choice; he may plant in that land whatever he chooses. The land doesn't care. It's up to the farmer to make the decision.
We're comparing the human mind with the land because the mind, like the land, doesn't care what you plant in it. It will return what you plant, but it doesn't care what you plant.
Now, let's say that the farmer has two seeds in his hand- one is a seed of corn, the other is nightshade, a deadly poison. He digs two little holes in the earth and he plants both seeds-one corn, the other nightshade. He covers up the holes, waters and takes care of the land...and what will happen? Invariably, the land will return what was planted.
As it's written in the Bible, "As ye sow, so shall ye reap."
Remember the land doesn't care. It will return poison in just as wonderful abundance as it will corn. So up come the two plants - one corn, one poison.
The human mind is far more fertile, far more incredible and mysterious than the land, but it works the same way. It doesn't care what we plant...success...or failure. A concrete, worthwhile goal...or confusion, misunderstanding, fear, anxiety and so on. But what we plant must return to us.
You see, the human mind is the last great unexplored continent on earth. It contains riches beyond our wildest dreams. It will return anything we want to plant.
Well, it's pretty apparent, isn't it? And every person who discovered this believed (for a while) that he was the first one to work it out. We become what we think about.
Conversely, the person who has no goal, who doesn't know where he's going, and whose thoughts must therefore be thoughts of confusion, anxiety and worry - his life becomes one of frustration, fear, anxiety and worry. And if he thinks about nothing... he becomes nothing.
How does it work? Why do we become what we think about? Well, I'll tell you how it works, as far as we know. To do this, I want to tell you about a situation that parallels the human mind.
Suppose a farmer has some land, and it's good, fertile land. The land gives the farmer a choice; he may plant in that land whatever he chooses. The land doesn't care. It's up to the farmer to make the decision.
We're comparing the human mind with the land because the mind, like the land, doesn't care what you plant in it. It will return what you plant, but it doesn't care what you plant.
Now, let's say that the farmer has two seeds in his hand- one is a seed of corn, the other is nightshade, a deadly poison. He digs two little holes in the earth and he plants both seeds-one corn, the other nightshade. He covers up the holes, waters and takes care of the land...and what will happen? Invariably, the land will return what was planted.
As it's written in the Bible, "As ye sow, so shall ye reap."
Remember the land doesn't care. It will return poison in just as wonderful abundance as it will corn. So up come the two plants - one corn, one poison.
The human mind is far more fertile, far more incredible and mysterious than the land, but it works the same way. It doesn't care what we plant...success...or failure. A concrete, worthwhile goal...or confusion, misunderstanding, fear, anxiety and so on. But what we plant must return to us.
You see, the human mind is the last great unexplored continent on earth. It contains riches beyond our wildest dreams. It will return anything we want to plant.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Oh wow...
Wow.....some days life can be so damn humbling! And today just happens to be one of them. I always try to find the positive in any and every day...it's who I am! I much prefer a glass that's 1/2 full! But there are some days that I just get up on the wrong side of the bed and find myself feeling irritated or frustrated. Today kinda started out being one of those days. Life was just rubbing me the wrong damn way!
And then..BAM..it happened! Life slapped me right upside the head, hard! A friend of mine lost his 19 year old son this weekend, he died in a car accident. And as I was sitting here being irritated at the world...my phone rang and it was him. I froze...what will I say? What do you say? Is there anything comforting or even semi intelligent that I can muster up to say that would offer him any sense of comfort? Oh...no! I answered the phone and heard my friend, a man that is usually so full of life and laughter on the other end....empty and sad. It was a short and humbling conversation. And it left me here to ponder life and it's consequences it sometimes so unfairly throws people. One of those things that leaves you wondering why? I know that my friend and his wife will never ever be the same. They will never have the life they had the moment before this horrible accident occured. They will never have just 1 more minute with their son. They will never get the opportunity to hear his voice again, or hug his neck. It's gone..all gone forever!
And in that very moment I stopped and realized just how overwhelming full my glass is! I hope to never have to face the mountain these parents are so courageously attempting to climb right now. My heart hurts for this mother who lost her son, the pain must be crippling her soul! And the pain must be devastating for this father who just can't fix it this time. What a humbling moment for the rest of us who think we've had a bad day! Wow...is all that I can keep thinking....
And then..BAM..it happened! Life slapped me right upside the head, hard! A friend of mine lost his 19 year old son this weekend, he died in a car accident. And as I was sitting here being irritated at the world...my phone rang and it was him. I froze...what will I say? What do you say? Is there anything comforting or even semi intelligent that I can muster up to say that would offer him any sense of comfort? Oh...no! I answered the phone and heard my friend, a man that is usually so full of life and laughter on the other end....empty and sad. It was a short and humbling conversation. And it left me here to ponder life and it's consequences it sometimes so unfairly throws people. One of those things that leaves you wondering why? I know that my friend and his wife will never ever be the same. They will never have the life they had the moment before this horrible accident occured. They will never have just 1 more minute with their son. They will never get the opportunity to hear his voice again, or hug his neck. It's gone..all gone forever!
And in that very moment I stopped and realized just how overwhelming full my glass is! I hope to never have to face the mountain these parents are so courageously attempting to climb right now. My heart hurts for this mother who lost her son, the pain must be crippling her soul! And the pain must be devastating for this father who just can't fix it this time. What a humbling moment for the rest of us who think we've had a bad day! Wow...is all that I can keep thinking....
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Sigh....
Do you ever have those days..or weeks...or maybe even a month that just wear you out?! I'm so there. What a seemingly tiresome time it's been lately. And the most annoying part of it all is that I can't quite put my finger on what is so damn wearing. Or maybe the most annoying part of it is that I am a newlywed. Yeah, according to the books this is the time of "great bliss, the time of exploration, and fun." Um...excuse me, bliss, exploration and fun you forgot all about me! Left me behind. Dropped me smack dab back in the middle of utter chaos. Am I not entitled to the same newlywed bliss as all the rest of the blushing brides? Cut me a break for pete sake!
You would think I would be more then used to "my amazingly busy world" by now. I've been actively participating in it for a long time now. But believe it or not, even a pro like me gets pretty darn worn out. I dream of a week when I can do a bunch of nothing. Yeah you heard me right. Just have no schedule. Hang out with my husband, my boys, the great outdoors. Nothing would be sweeter it seems. Or maybe it's because I know it's so out of reach right now that it would seem so sweet. Maybe I would actually get bored and want a whole lot of damn wearing again. I might end up deciding I need to be careful what I wish for. haha. But for now...to get me thru this chaos I think I will keep wishing and dreaming. Give me some peace and quiet. Give me a schedule that has some blankly clear times scrached throughout it. And just go ahead and throw me a whole bunch of nothingness! I can take it, I promise! I'd lay around and soak it all up. I'd nap in it's deafening silence. I'd gaze at it's clear openness! And I'd smile at it's free spiritedness. Go ahead and try me, I'd be happy to give it my best shot! Pretty please.
Friday, September 18, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
I needed some inspiration today!
I love quotes and inspirationals and when I'm having a blah day I often pull some of my favorites. Some remind me how amazingly blessed I am. Some encourage me to push a little harder. And some make me think of some of my foundest memories. So I thought I'd just throw a bunch up here. Hoping to brighten my day!
*Courage is being scared to death - but saddling up anyway.
*Aging may be inevitable, but giving into it is the fastest way to grow old.
*Live simply and frugally by mastering desire.
*Put your faith, and not your fears, in charge. Courage isn't the absence of fears but how you wrestle with them.
*Being broke is not the same as being broken, losing money is not the same as being lost, and finding your balance is not something you can do on a balance sheet.
*The brick walls are not there to keep us out; the brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something.
*It is a funny thing about life; if you refuse to accept anything but the best, you very often get it.
*A successful man is one who can lay a firm foundation with the bricks others have thrown at him.
*God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you NEED. To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be.
*When you come to the end of all the light you know and you are about to step into the darkness of the unknown..... having faith is knowing that that there will be solid ground beneath you or you will be taught how to fly.... Have Faith.
*4 things you can never recover! 1. The stone...after the throw! 2. The word...after it's said. 3. The occassion...after it's loss! 4. The time....after it's gone!
*To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did. When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better.
*Life is too short to wake up with regrets. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands.
*I am only as strong as the coffee I drink, the hairspray I use and the friends I have.
*I believe-That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
*I believe-That no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief.
*May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, Enough trials to make you strong, Enough sorrow to keep you human and Enough hope to make you happy.
*Every woman should know...when to try harder...and when to just walk away.
*Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
*Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
*Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
*Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
*God determines who walks into your life...it's up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.
*People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered-- Love them anyway. If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives--Do good anyway. If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enimes--Succeed anyway. The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow--Do good anyway. Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable--Be honest and frank anyway. The biggest people with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest people with the smallest minds--Think big anyway. People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs--Fight for a few underdogs anyway. What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight--Build anyway. Give the world the best you have and you'll eventually get kicked in the teeth--But always give it the best anyway!
*Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass...It's about learning to dance in the rain!
*For attractive lips, always speak words of kindness.
*The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.
*Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.
*Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
*Courage is moving forward even through the path of most resistance.
*To the world you may just be one person but to one person you may be the world.
*Aging may be inevitable, but giving into it is the fastest way to grow old.
*Live simply and frugally by mastering desire.
*Put your faith, and not your fears, in charge. Courage isn't the absence of fears but how you wrestle with them.
*Being broke is not the same as being broken, losing money is not the same as being lost, and finding your balance is not something you can do on a balance sheet.
*The brick walls are not there to keep us out; the brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something.
*It is a funny thing about life; if you refuse to accept anything but the best, you very often get it.
*A successful man is one who can lay a firm foundation with the bricks others have thrown at him.
*God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you NEED. To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be.
*When you come to the end of all the light you know and you are about to step into the darkness of the unknown..... having faith is knowing that that there will be solid ground beneath you or you will be taught how to fly.... Have Faith.
*4 things you can never recover! 1. The stone...after the throw! 2. The word...after it's said. 3. The occassion...after it's loss! 4. The time....after it's gone!
*To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did. When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better.
*Life is too short to wake up with regrets. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands.
*I am only as strong as the coffee I drink, the hairspray I use and the friends I have.
*I believe-That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
*I believe-That no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief.
*May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, Enough trials to make you strong, Enough sorrow to keep you human and Enough hope to make you happy.
*Every woman should know...when to try harder...and when to just walk away.
*Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
*Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
*Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
*Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
*God determines who walks into your life...it's up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.
*People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered-- Love them anyway. If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives--Do good anyway. If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enimes--Succeed anyway. The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow--Do good anyway. Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable--Be honest and frank anyway. The biggest people with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest people with the smallest minds--Think big anyway. People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs--Fight for a few underdogs anyway. What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight--Build anyway. Give the world the best you have and you'll eventually get kicked in the teeth--But always give it the best anyway!
*Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass...It's about learning to dance in the rain!
*For attractive lips, always speak words of kindness.
*The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.
*Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits; they become character. Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.
*Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
*Courage is moving forward even through the path of most resistance.
*To the world you may just be one person but to one person you may be the world.
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Let me introduce me...
I am a wife, mother, daughter, sister, aunt, friend, cousin, worker, coach, leader, counselor, lover, giver, keeper, follower etc etc! ;) My newest role recently being wife! I got married just a few weeks ago to the most amazing man I've ever meet. And although this is a very new role for me and is somewhat difficult to adapt to (I'm a tad independent and stubborn) it is the most right thing I've ever felt. For the first time in my 31 years on this earth I feel that deep, intimate connection with someone and it leaves me in total aww! He is a strong man in every aspect of the definition yet he has this beautiful raw emotional heart that makes me love him more every time I see it. I'm working hard on learning to be the wife that he deserves and I'm loving every minute of it. Out of all the hats I wear this one feels the most comfortable...day by day I see that I was made to be a wife. I am also a mother. I honestly can't remember what it feels like to be anything but. I would not trade a day of it for anything in the world. Yes it's the toughest hat I wear but the most rewarding feeling imaginable. I'm not sure that I could picture my world without my two little men. It wouldn't be the same, I wouldn't be the same. I feel like I am who I am because of them. Yeah...that's deep I know! But it's so true. So much of who I am and where I am and why I am is because I owed it to them! God took a piece of my heart and made it into these two little innocent and amazing people and with that came the biggest responsibility I would ever be given. I will be forever greatful to have been chosen to receive these gifts. I could go on and on about my boys. They are my world, they were my strength thru some very difficult times! I imagine I will write about Jonah and Kameron many a times on here. Jonah is officially a teenager (wow), he is strong willed and independent, and a little rough around the edges! He will be very successful in life...he is one of those that can do anything he puts his mind to. Anything he touches wins, succeeds and thrives. An amazing spirit and soul! And then there is my baby Kameron! He recently hit double digits...yeah he's 10. Not a baby anymore. But he'll always be my baby. He is determined and a pleaser, a do gooder! He has the sweetest little heart and always wants to follow the rules. He will be an amazing husband and father some day. Such a beatuiful and sweet soul! And now I have a beautiful little girl to add to my list. My step daughter Sariya. She has such an innocent little heart and it makes me smile to watch her and her daddy interact. What a sweet bond they have. She's interested and curious about everything....always wants to know how and why. She has a huge heart and will probably leave her daddy spending many a nights cleaning his shot gun in a few years from now. haha.
I'm on a role it seems! I am very passionate about the things I love. Anyway, I have several nieces and now a few nephews. I love being an aunt. It's a fun role to play. You can love them and spoil them and then send them home. I have a big family and always have. I grew up spending a lot of time with extended family and that gave me lots of fun memories. Grandmas and Grandpas and tons of cousins and aunts and uncles. Those relationships are so important in developing who we are and what we will become. I still cherish those relationships to this day. Unfortunatley my family is now spread all over the place...where we call home is not where most of them call home so it makes it harder to have those rich relationships that we desire but we find special times to get together and that makes it even more fulfilling!
Above and beyond all that...I am a supervisor over 2 retail locations and work for a great company. Probably one of the best in our region. I enjoy what I do. I'm a coach and a leader. We also own our own business, yeah in all of our free time...haha! It kinda feel in my lap under some unfortunate circumstances BUT we've decided to make the best of it. It's successful and we're learning as we go so I can't complain. It'll be a good memory to look back on someday..."remember when we owned that skating rink?"! Comes with lots of hard work but also some nice rewards. Whewww...I have worn myself out so I'm sure that means it's time to wrap this up already. So that's it for now, until next time. ;)
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Words...can you ever take them back?
So here I am in this huge ponder...one that so many feel very strongly about! Words...can you just throw them out there at random and then decide you want to take them back? Or once you put them out there...do they stay and linger in someones mind forever? This is one of those things that I feel so strongly about. I can feel and see only my side of it, only my point of view about giving words. My thoughts are so clear on it, no grey area for me. But could it be that I am so passionate about it that my judgement is clouded? Can someone really be so in the moment, so un-focused that they say something out of haste? Something that they later want to take back or say they didn't mean? Does "I'm sorry" make it all better? Does it change the way that it made you feel?
Questions...these are all the questions that come to my mind when I wonder about the power of words. That's it, words have so much power! A bruise will heal, and a cut will mend but words can linger on forever. And that's what makes them so dangerously powerful. They can make you smile, make you happy, make you sad, and even make you hurt. Just 1 word can change your emotion in an instant!
They are not tangible, you cannot hold them or touch them...yet words can be felt so deeply. And therefore I don't think they can be taken back. Through your mouth they were given and through your hands they cannot be taken back. Words are a powerful gift that we've each been given....one that should be used the way we intend the first time. Taking them back or trying to change the way they were delivered is very hard after the fact!
Questions...these are all the questions that come to my mind when I wonder about the power of words. That's it, words have so much power! A bruise will heal, and a cut will mend but words can linger on forever. And that's what makes them so dangerously powerful. They can make you smile, make you happy, make you sad, and even make you hurt. Just 1 word can change your emotion in an instant!
They are not tangible, you cannot hold them or touch them...yet words can be felt so deeply. And therefore I don't think they can be taken back. Through your mouth they were given and through your hands they cannot be taken back. Words are a powerful gift that we've each been given....one that should be used the way we intend the first time. Taking them back or trying to change the way they were delivered is very hard after the fact!
Friday, September 4, 2009
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Wow...speechless.
Very few times ever in my life can I remember being rendered speechless. It just doesn't really happen. I am an expressor, one that can rationally talk thru just about anything you can throw at me. Silient at times while I process...yes but speechless, nope! Until today I was overtaken with deep emotion and rendered speechless. What an amazing feeling! Mike has that effect on me. He says the most amazing things to me. He sparks these feelings of sheer exhilaration deep inside my soul. Slowly day after day I become more and more believing and understanding of true, unconditional, deep, honest love. And it leaves me in a euphoric state of mind. Has me wondering if I am dreaming, yet hoping that it's not a dream I have to some day wake up from. I love it all way to much to have to wake up! As I wonder about that I find the optimistic me wail up and scream! "This is soooo real, no dreaming!" This is what you've waited so so many years for. Someone had a hand in it long before we ever knew! And now it's finally mine...and that leaves me speechless! He leaves me speechless....awww!
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
It just keeps getting better...
Yes it's true...the real world isn't quit as fun as the traveling honeymoon world was but hey I knew I'd have to come back to it eventually. So here I am...back. Back to reality where every face I see isn't one of relaxed euphoria, every far away blur a sandy beach, or every word a sweet sentiment from a well wisher! Nope, the real world isn't so magical! But it's okay because this new real world of mine seems to be bringing me a set of new things to smile about anyway. My new husband sprawled out on our old sofa or the feeling of safety and security I get when I turn off all the lights for the night or the look of sheer comfort I see in my little boys eyes. Yeah those things are a wonderful all of their own...worth being in the real world for any day! So I'm back...back to reality but it's a-ok with me.
Monday, August 31, 2009
It wasn't a dream!
It's me...Mrs. Robertson! Hehehe! I can't help but giggle everytime I say that. It's gonna take some getting used to but isn't it so cute? I'm loving it. The wedding went off without a hitch and the honeymoon too. What an amazing time we had. Relaxing and beautiful and fun and intimate! What more could a girl ask for. I'll post pictures soon. I've seen a few handfuls but have none in my posession yet. Odd how that happens, isn't it? Should be getting the whole package today from the photographer so I'm excited about that. I looooove pictures, can't wait. I'll plaster them everywhere. There is someting so magical about looking at pictures of happy times.
Friday, August 14, 2009
I'm Off!
Here goes nothing! My very first post. Yes I tried for over a month now to get started but hey better late then never, right? Well it's Friday and it's a busy day....as usual. But maybe more so today! I can't help but notice my wall calendar yelling 8 days..just 8 days to go HK! As if I didn't realize that all by myself! My brand new life starts in just 8 days. How amazingly cool is that?!
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